You. Me. Us. [edited]

I look back at older posts and think "Man...things happen so quickly, life can change in an instant..." Just in the past 2 weeks alone, so much has happened and so many things have changed.

I've made life-altering decisions, I've had relationship-changing conversations...I've gained people in my life, I've cut people out of my life...all in the blink of an eye. Whenever I drive past a cemetary or see a funeral procession, I wonder "Do the people who are most important in my life know how much I love them? Have I made that abundantly clear??".

Flying home from JF's baby shower, I seriously thought the plane was going down. After electrical glitches caused the pilot to call for maintenance, I swore my life was ending that afternoon. With everything that's been going on the past two weeks, and that frightening flight, I've done alot of thinking about me, my relationships with other people and my level of happiness. No matter how much someone makes you smile, you can never be happy with other people (friendships and relationships) if you aren't happy on your own...it's just not possible.

I've made a promise to myself to focus solely on ME for the time being. Everyone deserves "me-time" and now is mine. [post edited for content] I want to do anything and everything I have the opportunity to do, and I want to have the time of my life.

If you haven't had your me time, I'd highly recommend trying it. For someone like me, who has always catered to everyone else, it's a difficult lesson to learn but I'm getting there. And if you haven't told your loved ones exactly how much they mean to you, do it now while you still have the opportunity because nothing is for certain and everything changes in the blink of an eye.