You. Me. Us. [edited]

I look back at older posts and think "Man...things happen so quickly, life can change in an instant..." Just in the past 2 weeks alone, so much has happened and so many things have changed.

I've made life-altering decisions, I've had relationship-changing conversations...I've gained people in my life, I've cut people out of my life...all in the blink of an eye. Whenever I drive past a cemetary or see a funeral procession, I wonder "Do the people who are most important in my life know how much I love them? Have I made that abundantly clear??".

Flying home from JF's baby shower, I seriously thought the plane was going down. After electrical glitches caused the pilot to call for maintenance, I swore my life was ending that afternoon. With everything that's been going on the past two weeks, and that frightening flight, I've done alot of thinking about me, my relationships with other people and my level of happiness. No matter how much someone makes you smile, you can never be happy with other people (friendships and relationships) if you aren't happy on your own...it's just not possible.

I've made a promise to myself to focus solely on ME for the time being. Everyone deserves "me-time" and now is mine. [post edited for content] I want to do anything and everything I have the opportunity to do, and I want to have the time of my life.

If you haven't had your me time, I'd highly recommend trying it. For someone like me, who has always catered to everyone else, it's a difficult lesson to learn but I'm getting there. And if you haven't told your loved ones exactly how much they mean to you, do it now while you still have the opportunity because nothing is for certain and everything changes in the blink of an eye.

Oh Baby...

JF's baby shower is THIS saturday! I'm absolutely thrilled for her and can't wait to see how much my nephew has grown (in the belly, of course). My flight leaves at 8:30 Friday morning and I will be with my bestie and her fam until monday night.

Unfortunately, I'll be missing my cheer program's FIRST school performance at their Welcome Back Rally Friday morning :( poor planning on my part. I'm also missing their picture day, which is sure to be fun in Old Sacramento, as well as KR's first football game of the season. Luckily, there will be more games and I'll get to see the proofs of the photos...it'll be like I was there! :)

Hope everyone has a great week in store. Happy Tuesday!

All About Me

A survey...since I don't go on myspace anymore and it's fun to share a little (or alot) about yourself :)

THE BASICS

Name
Melissa Liane Calderon
Gender
female
Age
23
Screen Name
don't use messengers any longer
Birthday
03/17/87
Race
Mexican, Filipino, English, Irish, German
School/Grade
none
Job
Office Technician for the State of California
Status
single and uninterested
Hometown
Sacramento, CA
Current Town
Elk Grove
Parents Still Together
nope
Siblings
one little sister
Pets
i am currently pet-less :(
Smoker
nope
Drinker
on occasion
Drugs
never

APPEARANCE

Hair Color
brown with blonde highlights
Is it Dyed?
absolutely!
Eye color
brown
Height
5'2"
Style
my own
Glasses/Contacts/None?
glasses when i need them
Freckles
nope
Body Type
out of shape!
Shoe Size
7.5-8
Piercings
I had 10 at one point...now only 3 have anything in them
Want More?
not really
Tatoos?
i currently have 2
Want More?
absolutely
Braces?
never had'em
Overall Best Feature?
in my opinion: my eyes
Overall Worst Feature?
in my opinion: my mid-section
Do you get most of your traits from mom or dad?
my dad

LIKES/DISLIKES

Favorite Color
green
Worst Color
is there a bad one?
Favorite Number
2, 22, 23, and 24
Favorite Animal
i'm really fond of dogs
Least Favorite Animal
mice!
Favorite Flower
the stargazer lily
Favorite Food
you can never go wrong with mexican
Worst Food
i hateHATEhate peas.
Favorite Junk Food
i'm a fast food junkie, i love it all
Worst Junk Food
i'm not a fan of snowballs and twinkies and that sort
Favorite Restaraunt
Morton's Steakhouse...best meal ever
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor
cookies and cream
Favorite Candy
peanut butter twix
Favorite Alcoholic Drink
Hawaii'an Punch (Three Olives cherry flavored vodka, pineapple juice and a splash of grenadine!)
Favorite NON Alcoholic Drink
Arizona raspberry iced tea
Worst Alcoholic Drink
jagermeister, only because it doesn't sit well with me
Worst NON Alcoholic Drink
milk...for the same reason as jager lol
Favorite Genre of Music
90's alternative
Worst Genre
screamo...gives me headaches
Favorite Band/Artist
311, Method Echo, Beyond The Grove
Worst Band/Artist
idk...
Favorite Song
one of them: Santeria - Sublime
Worst Song
idk
Favorite Radio Station
i listen to them all
Favorite Book
I Hope They Serve Beer in Hell
Worst Book
IDK
Favorite Type of Movie
romantic comedies
Worst Type of Movie
horror...i'm a big chicken
Favorite Movie
too many to name
Worst Movie Ever
Blindness due to it's graphic and never ending rape scenes :(
Favorite TV Show
too many to name
Worst TV Show
uhm...idk
Favorite Season of the Year
autumn!
Worst Season
i just hate the days it rains, if i have to be outside...otherwise i like all the seasons
Best Friend
SR, JK, DD, JF, CR, BS
Worst Enemy
don't have one
Favorite Day of the Week
Fridays
Least Favorite Day of the Week
Mondays
Favorite Sport
football and hockey
Sport You Hate
don't have one
One thing you cant get enough of
laughing...i love laughter. and kids, i love talking to and hanging out with children.
One thing you hate more than anything
being lied to

LOVE LIFE

Are You Single?
i am
If not, who is your bf/gf?

How Long Have You Been Together?

If You're Single, Do you Like It?
it's the right thing for me right now
Do You Have a Crush On Anyone Right Now?
i still love my exbf with all of my heart
First Kiss
when i was in the 7th grade, at a friends birthday party
Ever Kiss in the Rain?
nope, but i find it terribly romantic in the right setting
In a Movie Theater?
yeah
Underwater?
yes...not so easy
First Love
KB
Been Cheated on?
too many times
Been used?
definitely
Lied to your bf/gf?
when i was young and stupid
Do you Flirt a Lot?
i have a flirty personality, bubbly and happy most of the time, i don't mean any harm
Longest Relationship
off and on for 2 years
Shortest
8 months
Have you Ever Gotten a Poem?
no poems, i've been written songs though!
Ever Get Flowers?
i have
Sweetest Thing You've Ever Gotten
a surprise visit
Do you Like Valentine's Day or Sweetest Day?
my ex and i declared Sweetest Day to be "our" holiday :)
Do you Believe in Love at First Sight?
i do
Do you Fall in Love Fast?
absolutely
Are you a Player?
absolutely NOT
Ever cried over someone of the opposite sex?
well, sure
Ever Been Dumped?
yes
Ever dumped someone?
yes
Ever been rejected?
definitely
Do you have a lot of ex's?
there are only 3 people i was serious enough about to consider them my ex...the rest were trivial
Ever dated someone more than once?
yep
Double dates or single?
both, depending on the mood
Do you want to get married?
some day, yes

OPPOSITE SEX (what you're attracted to)

Hair Color
i tend to gravitate towards brunettes
Short or long?
shorter than longer
Style
comfy, casual
Age
around my own
Height
taller than me, but not too tall
Weight
i've been known to pick lighter-weight guys
Muscular Or Skinny
again, my track record says "skinny"
Do you care about looks?
i think that there has to be a certain level of attraction...but a good personality can make someone that much more beautiful/handsome

OTHER

Can you drive?
yes i can
Do You Have a Car?
i sure do
Do you have a cell phone?
yep
Are you online a lot?
daily
Can you speak another language?
not fluently
Do you do well in school?
i did, yes
Do you collect anything?
not anymore
Do you hate yourself?
i do not, no one should
Ever smile for no reason?
there's usually a reason
Talk to yourself?
haha, too often
Do you have any regrets?
a few...but i wouldn't be who i am without everything i've been through
Believe in magic?
i've seen the "magic tricks revealed" shows!
Do you support gay marriage?
i do
Do you trust people easily?
i used to trust fully at first, i've learned
Forgive easily?
not anymore
Do you have a secret no one knows?
nope
Do you get along with your parents?
some of the time
What about other people?
i like to think i'm a friendly person
How do you vent your anger?
by rambling to friends...or if i'm really mad, i'll cry it out
Goal Before you die?
have and raise a happy family, own my own business, visit all 50 states, travel to ireland
Biggest Fear
that i won't be a good wife/mother
Biggest Weakness
being in love...it makes me crazy
Do you play an instrument?
i wish i did
What do you want to be when you grow up?
happy

PERSONALITY TRAITS - Are you...

A daydreamer?
absolutely
Shy?
on rare occassion
Talkative?
most of the time
Energic?
i can be
Happy?
generally, yes
Depressed?
no
Funny?
some people think so
Boring?
i hope not
Mean?
i try not to be
Nice?
i like to think i am
Caring?
definitely
Trustworthy?
absolutely
Confident?
not nearly enough
Friendly?
yes
Smart?
i am
Sarcastic?
never... ;)
Dependable?
my friends say so
Quiet?
sometimes
Weird?
all of the time!
Adaptable?
i'm gonna say yes
Strong (emotionally)?
i try to be
Strong (physically)?
i can hold my own
Mature?
yes...and no
Logical?
rarely
Religious?
more spiritual
Modest?
very
Indesicive?
absolutely
Sympathetic?
yes
Polite?
definitely
Creative?
i like to think so
Fun to be around?
so i've been told...
Loveable?
i want to be :)
Easily Amused?
haha, yes
Outgoing?
yep
Daring?
i try to be
Clumsy?
on occassion
Nosy?
oh yeah
Lazy?
YES
Scary?
to my cheerleaders...lol
Optimistic?
i'm working on that
Persuasive?
i can be
A good listener?
very good
Curious?
always
Determined?
very
Artistic?
somewhat
Honest?
ABSOLUTELY
Respectful?
i am
Concieted?
not at all
Cocky?
not at all
Controlling?
uhm, on a certain level, yes. i'm a perfectionist
Playful?
very
Easygoing?
i try really hard to be
Carefree?
rarely
Hot Headed?
on occassion
Serious?
when i need to be
Thoughtful?
often
Considerate?
all the time
Stubborn?
i can be
Romantic?
hopeless
Ambitious?
extremely
Jealous?
minimally
Insecure?
occassionally
Obsessive?
not quite
Attentive?
very
Helpful?
i hope to be
Punctual?
i've gotten better!
Rational?
rarely
Sincere?
definitely
Tolerant?
of most, yes

Are you ready for some football?!

From LtoR: Head Coach CR, AD, KS, SSW, BG, TK and me! the coaches and their 1st group of graduating seniors *tear*
CR and I, the morning we left for JV Cheer Camp (via hummer limo)

I just got really excited...as I was updating the cheerleading blog I manage, I remembered that football season is literally around the corner. It's my favorite time of year, as football is one of my 2 favorite sports. In coaching high school cheer, I get to enjoy the Friday Night Lights and watch my girls perform. And while it's still early, I'm looking forward to the brisk night air as CR and I cheer on our boys and yell with our girls...AH! I'm so excited!

This week is busy busy busy with cheer practices and events: practice M, Tu, Th; competition team tryouts W; team building at Strikes on F; pancake breakfast and scrimmage on Sa...the following week is their first week of school, concluding with a rally performance on F...then I leave for LA again!

JF, my newlywed who's about to pop, has her baby shower on the 21st. I'm so excited that I'll be there with her...and then when GF is born, I'll turn right back around and fly down for a week. I can't wait to hold my new nephew! :)

The state workers are back on the Furlough program, meaning I get my 3-day weekends back! It makes things so much easier when trying to make it to the bus for away games with my girls! And I sure do like sleeping in and watching CSI all morning. :D

I had a fabulous weekend in the bay area. Dinner date, bad movie, card games, great friends, lots and lots of laughter...it was just the relaxation I needed after the exhaustion of cheer camps :)

Everyone have a great week!