This isn't our first rodeo...

...but it's definitely our last.

I've always loved that expression, "This isn't my first rodeo", referring to someone knowing what to do when questioned. It's comical to me that during one of the most difficult times of my life, that quote fits right in...with a personally added ending.

The relationship BS and I shared is no more. This isn't the first time we've been down this path, but unfortunately it seems like the last. We are on far too different levels of emotional commitment and we just couldn't make it work any longer. Had I submitted this post any earlier than today, it would have either been sorrow-filled or anger-driven. I don't want that this time around. I don't want to be sad over this, we shared SO many wonderful memories. I don't want to be angry over it, it's just not worth that kind of energy. And while it's my blog, about my life and my thoughts on things, I'm trying my very hardest to be diplomatic about the whole situation.

He was a great boyfriend. I was a great girlfriend. We were not what the other expected/needed emotionally in a relationship right now. We are on two separate planes regarding a significant other...eventually that takes a toll on both parties. I love him still, he will always have a part of my heart, but it's best that we each go our separate ways. I wish him all the luck in the world for his band's endeavors, I hope that he continues with school and gets his degree as he's worked so hard thus far, I want every happiness in the world for him.

As for me...it's about time I get my "selfish" phase started. In my 23 years, I have YET to be about me (and only me). I wouldn't trade any of my prior years in for anything...I've met the most AMAZING people, made some fantastic friends, and learned alot about myself along the way. But now, it's time for some "me" time and I'm SO excited! What that entails, I can't quite be sure, but I plan on doing some traveling and paying off debt, getting into cosmetology school and moving out of this city...the possibilities are endless and I can't wait to get started!

For now, I'll continue to work and coach, and I'm spending as much time with my close friends and family as I can. I am so grateful to have such loyal people in my life! I'm glad that summer is here because with 2 of my best friends back in town, I expect to have some fun filled summer weekends ahead of me!

Cheer practices for the 2010-2011 season start next week...thank goodness! I've been ansy, waiting for this season to get started.

My life has definitely had it's fair share of curve balls thrown at it...and as a perpetual planner, I've definitely taken them hard. But I've always been better and stronger because of it and this time is no different. Have a happy Wednesday, readers!