Can't - Function - Head - Hurts

I have a pounding headache...and it's kind of distracting. I feel like my eyes are going to pop out of my head! Possible reason # 1: lack of food. Possible reason # 2: lack of caffeine. Possible reason # 3: lack of water. Possible reason # 4: lack of sleep. Possible reason # 5: a combination of all the things I am lacking... X(

I posted my 2-week-schedule on monday. The only change to that is I get to see BS on saturday!!! I can't explain how excited I am! We got into it yesterday, had a really rough day. We are in desperate need to be near eachother. We have an amazing morning and afternoon planned of playing games, reading books eating sandwiches all in the shade of a tree at a park. It's going to be so relaxing! Then the following week, he's attending DP's Rockabilly themed birthday party with me...cute pics to follow? I think so!

If you are awake for the 6 am news on Friday...please watch KCRA. Our Varsity cheerleaders are going to be performing LIVE that morning in honor of Cosumnes Oaks being chosen for the game of the week. Then that night, they will be filming the Varsity football game (our FIRST home game of the season in our BRAND SPANKIN NEW all weather stadium!!) So keep an eye out for some awesome cheerleaders, they're part mine! lol

Have a happy Th-riday, everyone. CONGRATS TO C.O. FOR MAKING GAME OF THE WEEK...GOOD LUCK AT 530 AM VARSITY CHEERLEADERS! *insert evil laughter*

Right After The Rain

today, i hardly had the energy to roll myself out of bed. i desperately wanted to curl up under the blankets and spend my day in and out of sleep. i did, however, get out of bed and managed to get ready for work on time. the rain had come last night and into the morning, the pavement was still damp, water still clung to blades of grass and rolled down the sides of cars parked on the street. as i walked out the front door to my car: the brisk morning air was incredibly refreshing, the sun shined brightly on my face, and the scent of rain still lingered. i then longed to remain outdoors for a picnic, a walk, anything that would keep me in the presense of this beautiful day.

UNfortunately, i am stuck at my desk...inside of a building with very little access the beautiful weather, except for a pair of windows at my back. the clouds look so fluffy, the slight breeze blowing through the trees looks so inviting...*sigh*

this week...and weeks to come...are proving to be some of my busiest in a long time. take a look:

today: work 830-5, coach 530-8, laundry/dinner/sleep
tomorrow: work 830-5, coach 530-730, laundry/dinner/sleep
wednesday: work 830-5, coach 530-8, dinner/sleep (laundry should be done!)
thursday: work 830-5, Freshman game @6, dinner/sleep
friday: DP's BIRTHDAY! FURLOUGH DAY! JV game @530, Varsity game @715, dinner w/out of town fam, sleep
saturday: time with out of town fam, birthday event @5, sleep
sunday: shopping with DP for her Rockabilly-themed birthday party, sleep
monday: work 830-5, coach 530-8, laundry/dinner/sleep
tuesday: work 830-5, coach 530-730, laundry/dinner/sleep
wednesday: work 830-5, coach 530-8, laundry/dinner/sleep
thursday: work 7-330, Freshman away game @6, dinner/sleep
friday: work 7-330, JV away game @530, pack/dinner/sleep
saturday: leave for the bay to see BS and celebrate DP's birthday!

and the madness continues into the following week with morning practices for PowerderPuff cheerleaders, afternoon practices for my cheerleaders...we are in the works for teaching new choreography and preparing a Michael Jackson tribute as their homecoming routine...my life is cheer-madness!

plus i'll be moving soon...hopefully the first weekend in October *fingers crossed*...i'm renting a room from an amazing family. i'm helping them, they're helping me. it's a good arrangement. :)

i suppose i should get back to work. the rays of sun keep pulling me from my desk, forcing me to stare longingly out the window...i wish work came with recess. kids have no idea how lucky they have it.

HAPPY MONDAY!

meh.

Vegas wasn't the greatest trip ever imagined. (lost/stolen wallet complete with SSN, speeding ticket) but partying on the strip was definitely good times! i've never been inside a club more packed in my life!! felt like sardines in a can...a really SMALL can! :)

when i was a little girl, my cousins fooled me into thinking money grew on (...or technically IN) trees by hammering pennies into the stump of a fallen tree. i'm kinda wishing i had one of those miraculous money trees right about now. that ticket won't be pretty, especially while i'm looking to move out AND i was thinking i'd be in Florida for new years AND i'm a furloughed state employee. *sigh* caLi: you and your failing economy can kick rocks!

speaking of money: come to my cheerleader's car wash this saturday, if you're in the elk grove area. haha. 9 am-2 pm in the Kohl's shopping center. $5 for cars, $8 for SUVs and we'll have refreshments for sale.

speaking of my cheerleaders: first football games of the season are this week! fingers crossed for smooth sailing!

3-day-week this week, since monday was a holiday and friday is a furlough day. so technically today is wednesday. SWEET! have a happy one...

Welcome To...

Fabulous LAS VEGAS!

That's where I'm headed for this extended Labor Day weekend. Leaving with the little sis and nephew for an 8-10 hour drive tomorrow afternoon and not coming home till Monday. Hope everyone has fantastical plans for a fun and relaxing weekend...KISSES!

Fate vs. Choice

there is a heated debate over Fate vs. Choice.

okay, maybe not heated, but there is definitely some debate. :) there are those who believe everything that happens in your life was pre-destined, that you will end up doing/being what you were meant to do/be. there are those who believe you make your own choices, that nothing guides your life but you and your decisions. i am in between.

i don't rest alot of my trust in fate. for example: fate didn't land me my job, my turning-in-of-the-application did. i don't believe that if you want it bad enough, it will happen. for one to succeed, it takes alot of hard work. i do, however, believe that fate has played a very important part in my life to date, mainly with my relationship with BS.

our meeting was something out of a movie...no, even script writers couldn't fabricate something this outlandish. i mentioned that we met in a Jack In The Box drive thru, him with his group of friends and me with mine. i BEGGED my friends to stay where we were, i didn't want to leave. he BEGGED his friends to go home, he wanted to go to sleep. had we made our decisions, neither of us would have been there. he insisted his friend stop the car so he could jump out of the car and approach a girl dancing out of her window...something SO out of character for him. what made him do it? (he fought with me for a long time saying HE made the decision to get out of the car, it was HIS choice...but i still question why? if you'd never done it before, if you'd never think of doing it again, then why that time? why me?)

we had a very bad break up. heart wrenching for both of us, we didn't speak for months. we didn't see eachother for even longer. but we missed eachother, we couldn't remain out of contact. after all the mean and nasty things said, after the fights and the anger, something draws us back to one another. we are so similar and so opposite at the same time. we drive eachother crazy but no one in the world makes us happier! we are eachother's best friend and we talk about everything. i believe with all of my heart that it was fate that brought us together. and it is fate that continues to bring us back together.

DP emailed me today and told me that she believes that me and BS are meant to be together. i couldn't agree more. we have alot to work on and work through, but we're building on an amazing foundation we started over a year ago.

i'm sure it's been noticed that BS has been a common topic of conversation for me recently. part of that is that he's been my saving grace, my pillar of strength during a really difficult time in my life. i know, from our history, that i can rely on him to be here for me through every up and down. he's been especially great recently, letting me cry to him or vent my anger or share my excitement, and i truly appreciate it.

**to SR and JQ who have also been there for me on numerous occasions and who have offered a shoulder to cry on recently: i don't want you to feel unappreciated. i can't explain what all you've done for me and how much it has meant to me over the past months. you both have been very understanding when it comes to me not being ready to talk, and sometimes i just don't want to burden you. you both have alot going on in your own lives and i've been very careful to try not to dump my added stress on you. but i am so grateful to have both of you in my life, i love you both very VERY much!

back to fate vs. choice: i definitely believe that a single person determines who they become, the quality of their character and the general out come of their life. i also definitely think that there are those people in our lives, certain events or objects even, that fall into our laps ever so perfectly, as if by some miracle. i can only hope that my readers will know what in their life is their choice and their responsibility, and what to leave in the hands of fate/destiny/a higher power...

ps: i have the greatest friends in the world. i love you guys!

Back To Reality.

WHOA! I've had the most crazy past few days!!!

FRIDAY: emotional, to say the least. it's so difficult to be a grown child in the middle of a divorce. a tearful, somber drive to the bay area was followed by a fun night. Ride The Bus, Kings Cup and subway sandwiches with BS!

SATURDAY: what a perfectly lazy day! since we didn't sleep till around 5 am, BS and I slept in until 1:30 in the afternoon! a shocker for both of us...had a delicious Baja Fresh meal, rented a couple movies and lounged around all day. (PS: Valkyrie and I Love You Man are two movies totally worth watching!) more Ride The Bus and Kings Cup, another very emotional, tearful but overall pleasing conversation and asleep by...3 am? ish. :)

SUNDAY: the best day at the beach ever! we woke at 10:15 ish, cleaned up and got on the road headed for Santa Cruz. warm but breezy, it was a gorgeous day on the beach! we grabbed some food at Denny's and made our way to the warm sand for some comfy napping, good conversation and some playful fights in the water. we headed back to his home town and grabbed a Starbucks (coffee addicts we are) and talked for another half hour or so before it was time to say good bye. I hate saying good bye to him. we never know when we're going to see eachother again and it's always hard to let go. *sigh* but let go I did and was back in Elk Grove before 9 pm.

MONDAY: sick sick sick! I came down with something in the middle of the night. fever fluctuated from 100 degrees to 102 all day, the glands in my throat were swollen and tender, I felt AWFUL. luckily it went away and I was only gone from work the one day. but it was definitely strange.

I feel like I haven't seen my girls (cheerleaders) or the coaching staff in forever. I'm looking forward to spending the evening with them. another person I feel like I haven't seen in forever is DP. from a previous post, I'd mentioned how we'd gotten close under strange circumstances last year. apparently, our friendship never died even when we lost contact with one another, because hanging out brought us right back. she's such a good friend and we're so comfortable talking to eachother. it's nice to add another name to the short list of people I can depend on. we need to make plans, little lady!!!

Hope everyone has a happy Tuesday!!