Memories: the Fond and the Frustrating

It's been a day of remembering for me. At times, it's a very fun walk down memory lane with pleasant recollections. Other times, it's a painstaking sprint that leaves you breathless and disoriented. I've been lucky today...

My most recent ex-boyfriend [BS] and I had a really bad ending to a fairy tale beginning. We met in a Jack In The Box drive thru, making late night food runs with our friends. He hopped out of his car and ran up to my window, later telling me that he felt he HAD to be near me. (*sweet sigh*) We talked for hours upon hours over the phone for the following week, living 2 hours apart. Our next meeting would mark our first day as a couple. We spent the next 8 months traveling back and forth, spending every other weekend with one another, enjoying every second. We went to baseball games, shopping expeditions, family weddings, parties, movies, road trips. We had crazy nights out and quiet nights in. We cooked together, we shared our excitements and our disappointments together...

One of my favorite memories of our relationship happened at the California State Fair. It was our 4 month "anniversary". We'd been at the fair all day, browsing the arts and crafts, petting the animals, eating deliciously-bad-for-you foods. As the sun went down, our attention turned towards the Midway. [if you aren't familiar with the fair, the Midway contains all the rides and games] We boarded the ferris wheel, the dark sky illuminated with blinking signs and twinkling lights from the rides below us. The ferris wheel came to a stop, with our car at the top, to allow more riders on. "Everywhere" by Michelle Branch could be heard amongst the bells and whistles of the games below us. The view from the top of the ferris wheel was breathtaking, and then the fireworks began. With the best seat in the house, we watched one explosion of color after another. He turned to me, when the wheel was in motion again, and said "Alright. I believe it now." Asking what he meant, he kissed me and told me "You've always said it was fate that brought us together, and after all that, i believe it." It was something out of a movie and is, to date, the most romantic moment of my life. (another *sweet sigh*)

BS and I came to some intense disagreements towards the end of 2008 and went our separate ways, after trying again and again to make things work, at the beginning of this year. He was my best friend and not having him in my life took a toll on me. I contacted him in April and our communication had been slight until recently. For the first time in 7 months, I saw him again on July 31st. The reunion was everything we'd hoped it would be and more. He's the only person I'm comfortable sharing my every thought with, we laugh 80% of the time that we're with one another, our conversation is endless...the bond that we share is unbreakable and one that means more to me than I ever thought possible. We talk daily, now. I have plans to visit him again. Our friendship is blossoming in a direction we're both very happy with.

Being back in contact with him has flooded back so many happy memories. Life is too short and fleeting to be bogged down with memories of the fights. We've grown and matured and our ability to maintain a healthy friendship speaks volumes about us as people and about our relationship with one another. (*happy sigh*) I've spent alot of today thinking about the good times that were, and the good times we hope to be.

BS, if you're reading this, you are my best friend! Thank you for being back in my life! <3